This home has been deserted so long time when i registered it for the first time. On the other hand, it's just an appendage. But now i decorated it, which means that i will use it from now on, or perhaps now and then.
The first passage gives to myself. I am a person of selfhood. I am jealous of everyone I know ,though you don't feel it. 
As the words of the song say, "I stand alone in the darkness" and I never imagine that someone will die for me. I  live for myself or just for nothing, but i wonder something that i will die for.

<forever>  stratovarius
i stand alone in the darkness
the winter of my life came so fast
memories go back to childhood
to days i still recall
oh, how happy i was then
there was no sorrow, there was no pain
walking through the green fields
sunshine in my eyes
i'm still there everywhere
i'm the dust in the wind
i'm the star in the northern sky
never stayed anywhere
i'm the wind in the trees
would you wait for me forever
i'm still there everywhere
i'm the dust in the wind
i'm the star in the northern sky
never stayed anywhere
i'm the wind in the trees
would you wait for me forever
would you wait for me forever
will you wait for me forever